Eyes Open Much Brighter

Hello world how are ya? Its been forever in a day since i wote in this bad boy but im back and im in that (venting mode).Well im finaly 20 and i feel like that i have a time limit on my life and im trying to figure out what i need to do with it before i get old and gray i guess.I also became to realize that i really know who is here for me in my life to help and who is here for me in my life to bring me down.Shocking to say that i have been thinking about that and its ture. I recenlty lost a dear firend of mine (Wayne A Yarnell)and still dealing with his death is so fucking hard for me to do but i know i got to.I feel that when me and him talked i always told him how much life is on a timmer and we must enjoy it while we can.But who was to know that our time is on a very short timer. When i was growing up i always said imma be alive forever but damn all the things thats going on in the world u can die by eating veggies What the hell... Lmao but anyways im doing good im my life thinking postive and loving life day by day the people that i DO hang out with i trust them 110% because they been here with me and havent did me wrong.I am very thankful for that too. As for guys (aka dateing) well im doing me yep thats right lol like drake said but i really not payin atttion to guys and who likes me and etc. im getting ready for school in the fall and taking it from there.People ask me how come i have this attude of me not being mad anymore and i just tell them life is too short to be mad so i dont got time for it so i just dont. keeping postive is easy but ppl that try to bring it down well thats a challange but anyways i just wanted to drop a line saying im breathing still but ill write somemore soon hopefuly...
Miss Unique
~over and outtie~


P.S- wanna give out a quickie shoutout to Scotty B he wanted me to give him one so i did it lol He is also one of the ppl that i call family too so if u do mess with me the wrong way you gotta deal with him and ..shit everyone i hang with

And one last one to the Homeslice Desi aka (booty sweat) and Jay Prince for letting me kick it with them last week i had a blast and i wish desi the best for the air force ( dont leave lol) and im proud of him.. Jay Prince -I Hope everything will be ok with you in your life i wish you the best and i hope your cancer will go away think postive <3

Love you guys!!

IM BACK!!

Well well well lol its good to be back on here did yall miss me?Probly not lol but its all cool like ice cream.. Its been alot of things goin on. Some good Some bad but im learning as time takes over. Im starting fresh with a postive attude.I am still doing my school thing and I am busting my ass to get to the point of no busting lol but yea and as for my family we have our ups and downs. But that what makes us human right ..Lets see what else can i talk about Oh yea one thing that i dont like . Is that my separation of some of my friends . i dont ten to be that way its just certien things in my life made me want to be distance from my self but im goin to change that lil by lil i love all my friends to death and they kno that i would do anything for them


(OPENING UP)


[As a person that admits to her mistakes i can admit that i havent been the perfect best friend of the good sister or daughter . I also understand that i have been distance towards everyone even the ones i love . Some of you ask me why ..well to be honest i cant say cuz i just needed some space to clear my mind .Find myself in a way i dont want to say yea im back to the old me but i kno that drifting myself off from the ones i love isnt goin to make the situation better so thats all i have to say about that.]

Miss Unique is over and out <3

Here I Stand

As the summer days go by fast my mind has been all over the place thinking bout a relationship i want to one that i cant have yet. its a hard pickel im in but thats life i guess.... But im maintaing i start back school on the 25 of aug. am i happy not really i could go but i have to do something i dont like to do in order for me to go .i kno it will help me but i really dont want it .but now a days it seems the ppl i love and care about are fading aways some of them i used to talk to all the time and now its everyone in a while to a no call at all but my other ppl are there for me all day every day. i love hangin out with my friends they make me not think about all the b.s and sadness and drama i got goin its like time stop to have fun....and go back to the b.s later.

But i might have to pause on Love cuz i just hate to get hurt all the time i mean even if i ant in love i get hurt...i dont kno or understand why but it just happen i feel at times if i open up to someone i like or to somebody i feel like thats a week point for me so i just close myself up but i do open up to some and those ppl are lucky :) (LOVE YOU GUYS) but for the other i do they end up bitting me in the ass ..the keep ur enemies closer is ture even if u like them they are your enemy to ur heart they are called love zombies (thanks headfullofrose) they pretent that they want you and like you but they end up back stabing u lol but atleast i kno now which from which but yea the person i can be with will come one day im just waiting on them i kno what i want but i hope he does to. i cant wait forever tho that the one part i cant do. ill wait but i cant wait forever ill have to move on.......in my 18years and 7 mouths of living in this place called earth i learn to realize that you will have ppl come and go and the ones that want to go you should let them go... if u dont they will be the reason why your holding ur life up cuz of them but the ppl that choose to stay will be there with you til the end no if or butts about it well world thats all i can say for now but ill write back laters i gotta call my sister

I LOVE THE ONES THAT BEEN WITH ME THUR IT ALL !!!!!!!

~MISS UNIQUE~

TO MY BROTHER JOHN

THIS BLOG IS TO MY BROTHER JOHN.....WELL THERE IS SO MUCH TO SAY BUT I WANTED TO TELL U THAT I AM REALLY PROUD OF YOU ....YOU ARE ABOUT TO BE A FRESHMEN WHICH IS A GOOD THING. YOU ARE GOIN TO LEARN ALOT ON THE WAY WHILE YOU ARE IN HIGH SCHOOL MAN I CANT BELIVE I AM ACUALLY SAYING UR A HIGH SCHOOLER BUT I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!!

LOVE YA

YA SISTER JANITA

P.S ME AND TEQUILA WILL ALWAYS HAVE UR BACK NO MATTER WHAT THUR THICK AND THIN

Bitch Ur In Da Past For A Fucking A Reason!!/SOMEDAYS

DONT YOU JUST HATE AND THIS IS A PET PEEVE BY THE WAY FOR OF MINE BY THE WAY .BUT DONT YOU JUST HATE THAT YOU ARE JUST LIVING UR LIFE TO THE FULLIST AND NOT A CARE IN THE WORLD DOIN YA OWN THANG TILL YOU GET THIS PHONE CALL.....OR A IM TO SOME PPL SAYING *HEY LIL MAMA* UGH AND U BE LIKE WHY THE FUCK ARE U CALLING ME? DIDNT WE SAY ARE GOODBYES AND SHIT FOR A REASON HUMMM ANT THAT THE REASON U ARE MY PAST AND NOT MY PRESENT? ONE THING THE PISSES ME OFF THE FUCKING MOST IS NICCAS CALLING ME LIL MAMA I HATE THAT SHIT IT ANT CUTE AT ALL I WANTED TO PUT THAT OUT THERE BUT ANY WAYS I HATE THAT ISH AND AS THE PAST STILL COMES TO HUNTS ME I STILL TRY MY BEST TO KEEP IT THERE BUT THE DUDE JUST DONT KNO THE MEANING U ARE THERE FOR A REASON!!!!!!!! NOW I WOULD BE A BAD BAD BITCH AND PUT HIS SHIT ON POST BUT IMMA A CHICK WITH CLASS (BUT IF U STEER ME THE WRONG WAY SO HELP ME) BUT ANY WAYS AS YOU CAN TELL I AM WRITEING IN A PISSED OFF MODE CUZ I HATE THAT (LIKE I NOT SAID THAT 1,00TIMES) BUT AS I SEEM TO ENJOY MY LIFE WITH NO DRAMA AND STRESS FREENESS SOMETHING ALWAYS COME BACK AROND TO BITE UGH......

Somedays...... i feel that i change myself for the wrong reason? idk its kinda hard to explane but i want to change for me and not for somebody sake i mean if you do that you are basicly a ghost to yourself and am not like that but i am changing good /bad well i am changing in a good way because i am workin on my relationship with god but i am chaging in a bad way because i am distance with my friends and family i try not to be but i am its hard.....i am still wating for all my pain to be all over and want to look a the sunlight crack thur my window am smile again but how do i become happyer again? i am still trying to figure that out i hope that oneday i can be 100% me again and not just be 50% or somedays 25%
i just need to fix me period
laters
~miss unique~

~STARTING FRESH~

Well today is 8:34 am and i am getting ready to go to church somewhere in austin! Yea i am kinda shocked myself but i kno my buddy in heaven is happly pround of me (i keep my promises)but yea i am getting the jitters cuz this time i am goin by myself the last time i went my bestie vicky came with me but i think its time for me to walk on my own two feet and do this alone for now its some things in my life that alot ppl dont kno wats goin on but i just need to fix and work on myself (me time as u call it) just for a lil while as one for my things to do start fresh list is that i think its just god telling me to start and finish my greving procees and finish it and not half A** it its hard to explane but since my firend passed i been avoiding the fact that he is gone even tho i seen the site its hella hard for me .so i just help everone out with theres so they can be ok cuz i look after the ones i love and care about.and worry bout me laters my mother was telling me that i need to work on myself before i do anything else and now i am goin to take her word and do that and i am goin to start goin to chuch more often and goin to stop cussing and enjoy my life to the fullist like i should be doing began with i ant worry bout love now if it wants me it wants me but i every relationship that i have been in i learn from it and i learn from this one :) i will find someone that wants me for me one day :) well its bout that time for me to go love yall and god bless

~MISS UNIQUE~

~CUPCAKE~

THIS PERSON I GOTTA WRITE IN CAPS FOR THIS PERSON CUZ I FUCKING LOVE HER LOL I KNO ITS A RANDOM OFF THE WALL PIC BUT THATS HOW WE DO IT LOL HER NAME IS CUPCAKE AND I LOVE HER WITH ALL MY HEART WE BEEN THUR ALOT LAST YEAR AND THIS YEAR AND WE MANAGED TO GET THUR IT TOGHETER ME AND HER BEEN BESTIES FOREVER I AM SAD THAT SHE IS LEAVING FOR COLLEGE BUT I AM PROUD OF HER IN SO MANY WAYS SHE WOULDNT KNO (CUPCAKE UR MY SISTER AND I LOVE U AND NO MATTA WHAT WE GO THUR I WILL ALWAYS LOVE U THUR THICK AND THIN REMBER THAT!!! AND OH YEA DONT FORGET BOUT ME WEN U GET TO THE TOP EITHER I AM STILL TALLER THEN U GIRLY LOL ~LOVES YA ~